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Last night, I had a dream where I was in Berlin, carrying a picture in a broken frame. I'd been to Berlin before in the dream, stopping over to shop for records on my way to Helsinki. However, I have never actually been to Berlin. Curiously, a couple weeks ago I dreamed I was in Greece, visiting a city full of gorgeous goth girls in town for a concert. I'm wondering if it's a sign of something.

It's been a day of intense music listening. Over the last year and a half I have been recalibrating my music tastes, with an emphasis on the sort of stuff I decided not to listen to in high school and college because I was "too cool" for it — a lot of alternative / darkwave / mallgoth-esque stuff, and metal. I've been on a Nu Metal kick of late, and I'm liking it a lot. However, last night into today I decided to listen to My Chemical Romance. I stated with I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love, which was alright, and then moved on to Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge which I enjoyed a lot more.

Today, it was The Black Parade, and dang, that's a pretty good record. I'm going to have to give it another listen or two for it to fully appreciate it. Still, I was delighted by the production, the sheer operaticness, and the little nods to some of the classic rock operas. "The End" is basically just "Five Years" from Ziggy Stardust, and I definitely caught a reference to "The Trial" from Pink Floyd's The Wall (An album I listened to nearly every day for a year when I was 16. Not the best time in my life.)

I also listened to the Tron: Ares soundtrack today. I don't have much interest in the movie, but I'm always up for more Nine Inch Nails. I really appreciated Trent working in a little shoutout to our Trans Synth Godmother Wendy Carlos. That nice, detuned brass patch that is all over the original Tron score never failed to make me happy upon hearing it. Mad respect to Trent.

After my nightly prayer to Hecate, I decided to do a quick tarot reading about something that's been on my mind of late. I drew the Knight of Swords, the Sun, and the Three of Wands. It's a relief. My daily tarot pull today was Temperance, which tells me everything I need to know here. Patience will be rewarded.

With the New Moon tomorrow, I'm planning to do a job manifestation spell. Wednesday's interview went pretty well, and they told me I'd hear back on Monday at the latest. I figure a little more energy will help me get some good news. I've been out of work for over ten months, so I'm more than ready for something to come through. Anything, really.

we celebrate life
while they mark us for death
their masked thugs
desperate for soft targets
have the fucking nerve
to paint a violent ideology
on their victims
as they froth at the mouth

sad schoolyard bullies
rampant with unchecked power
settling old grudges
and ancient hatreds primed
by ignorant fear
the cycle of history turns
back a century
within the space of months

all too familiar
to anyone with eyes to see
the patterns repeat
and we have been here before
found ways to survive
come closer friend let me help
fill you with courage
and with the right hormones

needle in skin
revelation and rebellion
our bodies are ours
not property of the state
our minds are ours
we cannot be compelled
to rend garments
and weep for our oppressor

instead standing
in opposition by existence
against the wave
of manufactured outage
until the tides
in their endless cycle change
take the bastards out
we build paradise in their wake